I'm a total mess...up, down, up, down, so try and bare with me here. You'd think I was lying if I even tried to describe how amazing the friends I've met down here are...Eeva is my Finish sister. She's amazing - well educated, witty, funny, beautiful, and she's lived EVERYwhere. She speaks 4 languages and I have no doubt her and I will be life-long friends. Jenny is the first "friend" I made here...she's a Kiwi (from New Zealand and I actually studied abroad in her home town). She came over last night to watch movies and cuddle...she's genuine and everything about our friendship has been organic seems right. Elise and Crystal have also become like family. They're both French Canadian's with the most laid back sense of humor and they've been doing a great job taking care of me in my "homesickness state"...I call Crystal my candlestick - she's seen Beauty and the Beast so it makes sense ;-) Matt, James, and Matthew are all great guys as well, and the crew parties have opened up more doors for friendship than I ever could have expected. But even with that, and the true amazingness of all that's going on around me, I'm so homesick it hurts. I miss being able to be myself - my total sarcastic, quick-witted self (with all the cultural differences I never know if/when I'm offending someone so I've learned that it's best just to keep my mouth shut. I miss my foul mouthed, burping, boozing, retardedly amazing friends who love me in my most demented/ugly state. I miss my home...the only place I could go to and feel completely at peace. I miss Halloween in Minnesota...although I'm in THE Halloween capital of this country (only way I can describe it is: Fort Lauderdale is to Halloween like New Orleans is to Mardi Gras), today's just not the same. K, enough of that...like I said I'm so back on forth on loving it here and then wanting to move "home"... but when it comes down to it I left Minnesota for a reason and my heart just isn't there. Truth be told I have no effing idea where my heart is...I'm trying to listen to it and just go where it wants to take me, but the logical/planning side of me is making that pretty damn hard.
Update on the job search. Eeva and I went to a party the other night - a chef on this 185 foot boat was cooking for the crew and invited us to come (Eeva and Erik are classmates). Anyway, I meet a guy at the party and we start talking...he asks what I'm down here for and I tell him I'm looking to be a Stew. He says they just hired four and are looking for a fifth so we walk over to check out the boat and I fall in lovE! It's a 180 foot FEAD ship with the most amazing interior and GREAT charter schedule! He's giving my CV to his Chief Stew tomorrow morning so we'll see what happens :) They ship out in 6 weeks to head to the Bahamas so I'd have a lot of daywork to keep me busy and I'd be able to live on the boat...so keep your fingers crossed for me, oh and there's a helicopter on board!!
The Boat Show has been amazing but I'm glad to be wrapping up tomorrow. I've been told to only post things on my blog that I'd want the entire world reading so I'll keep this story to myself, but I will say my current boat "partner" has made me realize what I want and DON'T want in a crew member (I can give you details that will make your skin crawl but it'll have to be in private).
All in all, it's been a great week but I'm definitely confused on the idea of "home". Any thoughts or wise words are definitely welcome :)
Miss you all, and I hope to have good job news in the near future.
xo,
mE
P.S Here's me and my Finnish sis, Eeva.
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